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[Mar. 23rd, 2009|01:29 pm] |
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My life could not be better. :) |
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| Happy BIrthday To Me |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|12:03 am] |
I'm 19. Right now.
NO happy birthdays yet.
Horrible back pain. you'd think I'm 91.
I feel so sad and alone. My boyfriend doesn't even notice me. and if does he does the wrong thing. he can't just support me. no one does. ever.
sometimes i hate myself.
ugh.
stupid spring forward |
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| I will always love you... |
[Jul. 22nd, 2008|12:15 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  relaxed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | A Minor Incident::::::Badly drawn Boy | ] |
Life is so short and so sudden. Humans are peculiar creatures, and in the end, so little of it matters. All we can do is love and love some more. We create conflict to make our lives more interesting, but lately I've been enjoying life by just being happy.
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| Flowers |
[May. 17th, 2008|09:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Our House:::::::::Phantom Planet | ] |
I'm in love. |
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| Yearbook |
[May. 9th, 2008|12:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | HSM | ] |
I'm in yearbook. And once again I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing. Oh well.
Senior year.
Next week is senior week.
two weeks is prom.
Grad night is in three weeks.
then graduation is june 20.
it's so weird. or should i say queer? |
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| Indifferent |
[May. 27th, 2007|09:04 pm] |
I feel like I'm too young for the real world, but too old for the one I'm in.
I wish I couls go back a dn be fourteen and do all the things I could have done. Taken all the risks I could have taken.
Now that time has passed and I'm all dried up like a raisen with nothing to do but wilt in the sun. |
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| Friends |
[Apr. 15th, 2007|08:51 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | nowhere land | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Love You Madly::::Cake | ] |
My spring break is over.
Very sad.
I was sick the whole time.
Hanging out with Kat surrounded by drunken russian men and eeps was fun.
O'Malley makes me mad. and sad.
Friends don't lie to each other. Friends actually want to hang out wiht each other.
shits fucked up. |
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| I Might Be Wrong |
[Apr. 11th, 2007|06:28 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Home | ] |
| [ | mood |
| | blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sweet Talkin Woman:::::Electric Light Orchestra | ] |
But I think I got a horrible haricut |
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| Sister Act 2 |
[Apr. 10th, 2007|08:37 pm] |
It's been more than a year since I've written in this thing. And once again I'm sick. it's like when I'm sick, I have all this freetime to think about shit I used to do, and so I write here either to relive it or kill the time.
I feel like such a different person now, but not much has changed. I'm 17, have a liscense, go to a good school and have awesome friends.
For the first time, I am not letting my situation control how I feel, but I'm letting me be the boss. Letting myself be in control.
I'm beautiful. I'm smart. I'm talented. I have the whole world ahead of me. and I'm happy.
haha.
This is for me. |
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| It's A Hit |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|04:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | space oddity::::::::bowie | ] |
I feel shitty right now. I was so sure my life was headed in the right direction. But now I'm more confused than ever. I don't know what's happening with my friends. I think all boys hate me. And even my guitar doesn't show me any sympathy.
I'm 16 now. Haha. sigh. is is possible that I'm going back in time.
He said "is this a date"
and I said "i don't know"
nervous hours on the bus.
secret smiles, lots of lust.
thoughts of how i'll be, are so far different from me
i mask myself for pretection
thinking he'll like the attention
i don't know what to say
how to act
maybe i should be me
hah
thats new
cold air
rain drops
funny previews
my heart stops
I'm funny, really i am
really, i usually have more to say
i'm not as shy as i seem
who am i kidding
this was all a dream
and you've already made up your mind
I'm waking up
ahhh fuck. |
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| Slow Circulation |
[Jan. 25th, 2006|07:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | rilo kiley | ] |
Why is it that my heart keeps pumping
and my blood keeps flowing
but i've never felt so cold
i guess i need gloves
My friends all have good things happening to them. when is it my turn? hah. I'm so selfish.
I hate going to a school with no guys. at this rate i lose my virginity to a dance student before he comes out... |
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| Happy 4th |
[Jul. 4th, 2005|10:33 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Yankee Doodle | ] |
Yupp......we're stilla free country to eat and sit on our fat asses and watch as our government takes over the world.
I love america. |
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| Kat has Forgotten about Me |
[Jun. 21st, 2005|07:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Together::::::O'Vally | ] |
How much wood could a wood-chuck chuck, if a wood-chuck could chuck wood? |
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| Night out |
[Jun. 4th, 2005|12:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Luck Be a Lady | ] |
heals
lip stick
and a cute black dress |
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| meh |
[May. 23rd, 2005|05:34 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  jealous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Happiness is a Warm Gun | ] |
Life has been weird lately. It's been better...it's been worse. hah. how vague.
Testing was easy. I had two tests...so all week I pertty much just hung out with friends. Except for arts classes....we had rehearsals...it sucked.
Our show was at the Alex Theatre this weekend. It went well. surprisingly.
O'Malley is going NY...tear.
Boys make me sooooo mad. They don't even realize they're hurting you.
I miss Kataryna Kopelevich a lot. I have officially converted to russianism just for her. hah.
yeah.
Pregunta::::::
Is anyone else frightened by Toney the Tiger?
peace. |
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| The Middle of Nowhere |
[May. 7th, 2005|09:11 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  crazy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | love actually song thingy | ] |
This week I learned that I hate bus drivers...they are pricks.
I'm really sick of first year project.
I'm starting to realize I don't understand what love is.
In fact I don't undertand what hate is. But I definitely know what jealousy is. hah.
Wednesday was some weird board meeting. Me and some random kids are being hired to create a TV show.
Thursday was really fun. Mel and Lauren reunion. Plus for the OC party (my guilty pleasure) Mel had a bunch cool gals over....tons of fun.
Friday was the funnest weirdest and definitely best nite I've had in a while.
O'Malley has my cursed hat.
peace.
p.s. what is beauty to you? what or who do you think is beautiful? |
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| Poor Clay |
[May. 1st, 2005|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | no surprises | ] |
So this week and weekend weren't that bad. Like usually I was dramatic. yupp. I need to take care of that soon.
Friday really fun ats classes thanks to Lily, ryan and sarah. later that night had a war with back scratchers.
saturday I broke out the windex and pledge. Don't tell me how jealous you are...I already know. Later O'malley came over and so did my sister's friend december. we hit up rigo's and then had a lot of fun.
today we went to this street fair/flea market thing in hollywood. fun stuff. then we had a really LONG hike. felt good. but at the same time not.
i hate homework. i miss someone right now.
peace.
sean mcCarthy is an alien |
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| Weirdo is now spelled L-A-U-R-E-N |
[Apr. 24th, 2005|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Radiohead | ] |
So...I said alot of things I didn't mean this week to people I care about.
Friday, Kat, Wyatt and I hung out in Hollywood then we wernt back to wy-wy's house and we played music. I love you kat.
Saturday Liv and I hit up YATS. We saw a Play Without Words. It was one of the most unique productions I had ever seen. The music was incredible. I loved it. Oh! and Diane Keaton sat behind me. I LOVE HER. yeah...I thought that was cool.
Today I went to the Festival of Books. and i walked to rite-aid.
now i'm researching LIVEAID b/c i can.
peace.
i need somebody to talk to. |
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| Yay...house arrest |
[Apr. 17th, 2005|06:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | sick | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Norwegian Wood | ] |
so thursday I went with o'malley and karina to pasadena where we ate at the cheesecake factory and made weird faces to random people at the street. then o'malley's mom bought us all thongs. then we got lost on the way to the pasadena playhouse.
cash on delivery was AMAZING. i loved it.
after o'malley and i got home talked...and i tried to sleep...but that didn't work out for me.
friday.... was okay....we did nothing all day.
saturday i get really sick and my family decides to go to san diego.
today i sneak out to go to the street fair..i get caught...and yeah.
oh and question....how do you write a paper on your character if you play a fucking piece of corn???
peace.
ps i love my friends |
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| I really like stickers |
[Apr. 9th, 2005|11:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | artistic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Que Onda Guero?:::Beck | ] |
So yesterday I hung out with O'Malley, Karina, Brittany, Nalani, Stevie, Ryan, Soan and Kady at Kady's house..it was a lot fun. We exploreed the wilderness....played ddr...haha....swam....and i flashed everyone...so good times as always.
Today I woke up too early and Liv and I went to yats. Chris and i became amazed with chop sticks. And I saw the most amazing play ever!!!!!!!
This play changed my life i swear..its so good. It's called Electricidad. It's incredible...all of you most go see it now.
so i just watched Fast Times at Ridgemont High...and now i am bored and i want a brownie.
I've been really depressed lately over a stupid boy...but now my friends have helped me through...and I have never felt better.
Life can be so beautful sometimes.
Peace. |
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